Monday, March 7, 2016
Somehow we have survived the past 35 hours without BJ.
For those who have not heard...BJ passed away Sunday morning into the arms of the One who loves him more than we do...the One who blessed me with the most amazing son to nurture and love on for the past 15 years.
To state the obvious, we are devastated, and we hurt beyond what mere words could ever describe. Those last images of BJ, the medical team working him, over 30 minutes of CPR, and the final moments we had keep replaying in my mind. BJ always hated to see me cry. I hope as he watches over us, he understands that I just can't hold back these tears. Carly is struggling to make sense of this. She's hurting for the huge space her brother held in her life. Even Charlie Brown and Lucy seem to be aware of the incredible loss of a boy who dearly loved his dogs.
I close my eyes and imagine the greeting that BJ must have received as he entered heaven. “The master was full of praise. ‘Well done, my good and faithful servant. You have been faithful in handling this small amount, so now I will give you many more responsibilities. Let’s celebrate together!" (Matthew 25:21) What a blessing to have a child with such faith in God, to withstand the adversity that he faced every day without once losing his faith. I can't wait for the day to see him again, hug him, have long conversations, watch something together, and just see my world again inside those bluest of eyes.
We are so very thankful for the birthday cards, gifts, videos and letters everyone sent to BJ for his birthday. He enjoyed his special day as much as physically possible, and was overwhelmed by the outpouring of love.
Please continue your prayers for us as we navigate this life without the brightest light of the most beautiful and toughest warrior.